Focusing on the More Important (this is from 2009 but so relevant for today)


The child grew up, healthy and spirited. He lived out in the desert until the day he made his prophetic debut in Israel. Luke 1:80 (I didn’t know there was 80th verse:) (The Message


The little boy at my brother’s wedding. He waiting for this ceremony to be over.

This verse is for me today. I am in a waiting mode. Waiting for more books to come, so I can sell. Waiting to come out of a wilderness and traveller mode, so I can settle. Waiting for money. Waiting for the direction the Lord has for me next. This verse is me still out in the desert…and the day will come when I will come out into what God has for me. John had his debut, we all will have a debut. All our preparations will make sense as we step out into what God has been training us for. In a lifetime we have many ‘debuts’. (It’s 2017, July and I’m still waiting. Are you still waiting? Keep waiting upon the Lord. He is coming through for you. And look how much you’ve grown in your desert experience.)

This is way more important than our daily irritations, like my email and website problems. But these are stepping stones essential to making us better in our new roles.


What if Esther had left the palace?


queen EstherOne day I’m going to write that story about the little girl Esther, who became a Queen. The way there involved being kidnapped and kept away from her family and loved ones, in a strange household and at the end of it some older man, the king, was going to have sex with her. (Esther 2:1-18)

It must have been awful even though the records do not show that, I’m just imagining.

But she spent that year in seeming luxury. It might not have seemed that way to her, but she was cared for, had beauty treatments, ate well, dressed well and was liked by the Headmaster, Hegai (a eunuch, meaning a man who had his sexual organs removed. O.K. they were kinda ruthless back then).

Sometimes God allows us to be in horrible situations. But it seems Esther remained loyal to her God, Yahweh, the Lord God Almighty and even though she may not have liked this, she stayed.

The story I wanted to write was a view of, what if Esther had refused to stay in that circumstance. Well, obviously she would have missed the opportunity to be Queen, as the King ended up crowning her because he fell in love with her. She would have missed the opportunity to save her people from being killed off. I mean God would have found another saviour, but she would have missed out and we would have missed out on her.

Many of us are in difficult situations. Look full into Jesus wonderful face and see if it is He who has orchestrated this turn in your life. Ask Him as you fix your eyes on Him, why you  are there. If you find out it is of Him, be sure like Him, you can endure this for the joy set before you. For if you do not grow weary and give up you will reap a harvest! (Galatians 6:9).

Feeling My Oats


4th of July! Independence Day for the United States! Free from the British – Yeah! Is it just me, or are they invading us…news shows, entertainment, movies? Are they back? Watch out! In a minute they’ll be President.

It’s a good day. Once again I have victory…I just realized my dearest desire, NOT to have to go out to any barbeque today. To be in. Maybe, I’ll go over to a friend’s to swim, but don’t have to do that either. Let me tell you – it is hot. In Reston, Virginia it is 95 degrees with 55% humidity and it’s oppressive. Dew point 76F…whatever that means. I’ve never known, but dad used to study that stuff to track why he was feeling whichever way.

Am I ‘feeling my oats’ at last after 56 years on this Earth? Yes, I’m feeling even more empowered than I was yesterday. I thought I was already BOLD? But I guess not enough. If I don’t feel like accepting a friend’s request to come over, I can do that. What’s the worst that could happen? Puleeese! And this friend isn’t even like that…I think.

It’s my baby sister’s birthday. Yep! She’s a firecracker. The baby girl is 49! I know, right? When that happens you really hold relationships more dear. People are moving on in years. Time waits for no one. I got to talk to the baby girl today, which was nice and rare. She’s always busy at work or having some kind of fun:) But we got to chit chat a little this time. I love her. What a sweetheart and a character. She’s not boring and very funny. I wish for her blessings and  revelation from the King of Kings into the supernatural mysteries of God, so that she has an awesome life of luxury and joy. Her humor should be used to bring people into the life God ordained for them.

I love the Lord. Yesterday I blogged on this blog, but I meant to blog on my other blog, Faith Journey Now! I couldn’t believe I made that mistake. The ladies in the PATH class gasped in horror. But oh well, “my steps are ordered by the Lord” & “my times are in His Hands”. This must be where He wanted me to say what I said. I’m following Him on this one too.

Here’s what got me, so many of you liked the post and subscribed to this blog. I was in shock. The Holy Spirit said, don’t you think you’re interesting. No, I really don’t. But thank you all for your interest.

O.K. I’m moving on with my wonderful day.

5:23 p.m. EST

Another day gone


It just dawned on me, I should be blogging here. So many God-things are happening and I’m blogging at YouTube – – but I love to write also.

Look, I’m finding myself standing up for myself more and not letting people who think they know more lord themselves over me. So I feel stronger. I’ve been going though a PATH (Post Abortion Trauma Healing) for six weeks, so I’ve been grieving (in my own way) and now I feel stronger.  O.K. so I’ve said it. I’ve been in post abortion trauma classes. And it’s been good. I have never heard of such a thing. Anybody else?

Apparently, I needed more than the healing I got from it years ago when I received God’s forgiveness. But there are some actions you continue in that come from having had abortions in your past. Well, if you’re like me and you’ve never heard of this, it’s worth looking into. You don’t just walk away from medical procedures unscathed.

Oops! I think the time on this post is wrong. It says 2:14:27 a.m. and it’s really 10:15 p.m.  My learning curve on WordPress is so long and yet I think it might be better than Blogger.

Today was one of quiet. The Holy Spirit really wanted me still. He said in stillness in His Presence will I get strength. So if you’re striving in anyway – rest and relax. Our Father in Heaven wants us to relax so badly. He sees us striving down here and He groans, “why can’t they rely on Me”. I know some of you are thinking, “how can I relax in this situation that I’m in”.

The Lord longs for you to relax. The God of this Universe, longs for you to relax. He has the Holy Spirit on hand to show you how to relax even in the situation you’re in. Bless you. It’s nightie night for me. Sleep tight.

The REAL Life of a Writer!!!


You know as I sit here blogging and alternating, adding things to the Tunde books, or my new memoir, or adding stitches to my new knitted fingerless yellow gloves  and eating, I think, writing is not what people think.

I’m sure I used to think, the life of a writer was sitting all day writing. But now years into it, no way is it that way. Carol just passed by and asked “how’s the writing?” and I innocently said “good”, when I thought how I used to think how that looks.

Now for some writers it might look different. Some say they get up at 5 and sit down to write at 8 and write until 4 and return to edit at 8. Boy oh boy! how dreary. More power to them. I instead, go with the flow. (as you can see from all the pictures I’ve taken of myself with my laptop webcam). Oh how anal and orderly folks hate that! The key for me is listening to the voice of God and making sure that I’m doing what my Father in Heaven is doing.

If I’m in sync with SOLG (Spirit of the Living God) all day I’ll be O.K. It’s when I think I’ll follow Stephen Covey’s plan for the work day or veer off into work mode like at Cable & Wireless or DoD or days. Why my having my hair on top of my head today helps me feel more free I don’t know, but as the new year came in I began to feel more free and energized and like nothing can stop me from wallowing in the Presence of the King and being one with my Father God.

The real life of a writer (like me) is to be in the Now. Remain in the present and in the Presence.

Boy, I’m feeling dangerous and frisky and ready to dive off a cliff. I hope it shows up in my work, because I’m not moving from this day bed. LOL